to the mother of my children,
Sent: Fri 6/29/07 8:08 PM
I emailed you to this email because I know you check it. My heart is so full right now, after first reading your "m" word post and then talking to the kids about what to call you. Grace once again insisted she wants to call you "mommy," and I suggested "imma" (Hebrew) or "mummy" for Isaac and Olivia. You make a good point that with all you do for them, it is only fitting that you have a special name.
One funny little thing--Grace was saying something about us being here and added, "because Mommy doesn't belong here!" I am so grateful that we have created a space for these children, a space where we can nurture stability and boundaries saturated with love. You fulfill my dreams, my beautiful angel. Thank you for being that angel, that messenger of God who came into my life and made me whole--more complete than I have ever been.
I like the double meaning of the subject--the obvious, that we will have beautiful children together whom we will love and raise together, children who will weld us even more closely together, and the fact that you are becoming more and more of a mother to my children, my dear friends whom I love and care so much for. I have ached that we will have a complete family and they never will, but this summer has already shown me that they too can bask in the fullness of our love.
I love you more, my goddess.
Isn't that a most lovely email? Last night I left right after Jared got home from work to go the temple with my friend Jennifer. After a long a session, we got dinner and I didn't get home until about 11 o'clock. And this is what was waiting for me! Besides Jared and the kids all still awake! This email totally got me all misty-eyed. My husband is so good with words. I have hundreds of beautiful emails from him, but after the past two weeks with the kids, this one meant so very much to me. I wanted to share. Thank you, Jared. I love you!